Dear wonderful people of the world.
Hi. It's me again.
I wonder what I'm doing back here on this page.
Hmph.
Perhaps I just need a place where I can just write what I want.
Because it's MY page, and I shouldn't be judged for sharing my inner thoughts.

Well it's week 4 of school already, and it seemed almost like yesterday that I just started my 2nd semester.
I know very well my work is piling up.
I do read ahead of my lectures, and prepare myself for lectures.
But when it comes down to doing the assignments, my brain is fried.
Funny thought?

Aside from that, I've been eating non stop.
It's the bread.
I suddenly can eat so many slices of bread in a day, 1 slice at breakfast with my cereal.
When I usually don't eat bread to begin with.
The amount of carbohydrates I consume is scary too
I feel that I miss eating so much that I may be binge eating what I can right now.

Additionally, there's the exercise component.
Why do people comment and tell me, that I've got alot of time?
Just because I exercise, does that mean I have alot of time?
Don't people make time for things that are important in their lives?
It's just about incorporating it into your daily regime and stuff.
So maybe I haven't been actively posting on other forms of social media that I have a gym membership and that I really do enjoy dance classes?
Hahah so I also probably know that I have the face of a "non-dancer", yeah sure enough I don't usually dance.But I do enjoy dance workouts.
They get my heart rate pumping and also gets me sweating.

Okay, aside from all the above ranting. I really did wish I had something else to do rather than go to school go home go gym eat sleep, and the cycle repeats.
Honestly after the sndc event, it's like a major project is over now. There's nothing much to look forward to.
There are no public holidays I can look forward to.
The mid semester break just mean that I'm closer to oral vivas and the dreaded 3 hour exam at the end of the semester.
Other than that. It's an agonising 90 day countdown when I really get to go home.
To the arms of my family and friends.

I worry constantly about the family situation back home.
Family dynamics not all that good
The in-laws and everything.
I often play the messenger, and I wished things could just go back to how they were pre-study.
Distance.
Being so far away and can't do much for them back here.


So to those that miss me.
Here's my happy face.
But really, deep down inside of me.
I'm not at all happy.

Often I treasure moments when I get happy whatsapps and skype sessions. But I know they don't last forever.
I sound clingy and whiny.
But who isn't?
Home is where the heart is isn't it?

17th November 2014, I really look forward to meeting you.
Haha do I really seem so tough on the outside? That people don't really know what's happening deep down inside below me.
Yes yes, I portray that image pretty well
But I am often reflective and sensitive (says my preferred learning style), which means I do have alot of innermost feelings trapped inside of me. That doesn't show on my face.
So, an occasional are you okay, I know you're not would be good. :')

So anyway.
I'm probably going to go for zumba right now.
Goodbye.