found out from wuwu that ms audrey chen is from ijtp! i can't believe it, she doesn't look like an ij girl. Shall go ask ms jo teo or mrs alex if they remember teaching her or not! wow wow wow!!!!! I don't know how the hell this is happening. But recently alot of random people adding me on msn. Its like HOW THE HECK DO THEY GET MY MSN? I don't go around soliciting and what not. Is soliciting even the right word to you?

Rayu's probably having a ball of a time, She's got the same problem as me. People that randomly add her on msn. Being horny, and all. Wanting to strike a disgusting conversation. She's going ahead with it right dear? She accepted their request for webcam, and she's learnt how to use the snipping tool. She's gonna post pictures up on her blog. RIGHT! Make fun of them only. These people really are disgusting and with alot of time to do.
She's gonna entertain these people for tonight only, and delete them from her msn completely. Its scary, that such people exist in this world!

I'm currently trying to complete
1. 8 self check quizes
2.4 revision papers
3.2 exam papers
4. tutorial 10?

ALL BY TONIGHT. Its audrey chen's last wish, for us as students. to attempt ALL and work extremely hard for chemistry because she doesn't want to see us next academic year! she's one dedicated and motivated and determined lecturer alright! CNY is like into its 6th day, but it doesn't feel like it. Its almost ending for me. I think I'm going to get a D for CRS. I hope I get a D for this freaking 2 credit module.
i think at the rate i'm snacking on the cny goodies. my throat will get worse and my cough too. but its cny! like only once in a year, doesn't really matter does it?
I feel that my cnys are getting less interesting. We have fewer people and fewer places to visit now. honestly, doesn't even feel like chinese new year. its just like a normal day. the spirit isn't there, the liveliness as well. The celebration is becoming more simple every year. i wonder what would be left when its my turn as a parent.

snacking is unhealthy. but my mouth is itchy. its hard to stay away from the new year goodies. especially when its your favourite: prawn rolls, pineapple tarts, kuih bangkit, almond biscuit, BAK KWA, chips, peanuts, COLD DRINKS. SWEETS. URGH. imagine how much calories i'll be consuming these few days. Its not going to help my irritable throat. its going to make my waistline expand and leave me craving for more.

no matter how far away i sit from the snacks, my hand will always have the tendency to reach over and grab some! i need to get cracking on my essay. i haven't got the points yet. study study study!

valentine's day. awwww so sweet. nothing special this year. miss the girls though. miss how we used to celebrate vday in secondary school. it was more special then. now? nothing lor. Crs was a total disappointment. I was really excited because of the arguements and the seeeupporting evidences that I came up with. But apparently, there were many loopholes, and my classmates were able to tear down the arguement quite easily. I was super depressed, because its like something put right in front of your face. Telling you that you suck. While others are happy that they've gotten their crs over and done with. Complimenting each other on a job well done. i can't help but worry. That i'll repeat this pathetic 2 credit module.

Like after so much effort you've put into it. It goes all the way down the drain. A huge disappointment. I don't know what else to say. The lecturer kind of lectured us after our presentation and she told us that there were 2 out of the 4, in the danger zone. So I'm really stressed up now. Cause i failed the essay, and now this has to happen to me.
What have i done to deserve such things! I mean, i've been okay right. not skipping lessons and classes. i pay attention and do what i'm told. isn't that enough. why am i being rewarded this way. i have to do some self reflection now over cny period is it. as if i don't have enough to think about.
chem quiz. a whoooping 12.5/50. as you can see. that totally sucks. its 10%. which is totally gone down the drain again.

 I don't feel the cny mood at all. AHHHH. I feel so much better inside, after letting it all out. Laughing it out and finally getting to know that BIRTHDATE! It was a total stress reliever, and I'm happy that its all out, and flushed down the toilet together with my germ-infested tissue papers. Thanks for listening! I really enjoyed talking to rayu. Stress- relieving! Like seriously!

I'm so sorry for pmsing today qiqing. I know you can feel it. It was a horrid day, 5 hours of chemistry is something that you would never ever want to live with in a single day. Plus, with a test and a presentation( that's not even completed ) due tomorrow. I'm really annoyed and pissed and devoid of compassion to what you just told me. About joining me for grocery shopping or being late. It was just added stress.
No worries, I'm fine now. Looking forward to meeting you tomorrow. 5pm. Supermarket. We shall do reunion grocery shopping, and come back to a boiling pot of miso soup! Got myself 5 days of Coturoxime Tad, and Febrax and Mac Dual Lozenges. Armed with a box of tissues and lots of warm fluids.
Whats in store for me this cny? A whole lot of rest and revision for the upcoming exams. i attended the wake today.
i dared to look into the coffin for the first time.
come to think about it.
she isn't even someone that i've seen often.
yet i dared to take a peak and stare at her
she looked peaceful.
had a pearl in her mouth.
lotus everywhere on top of the casket.
wrapped in a blanket.
went with lizzie and mich.
PQ seems to have grown up suddenly.
no longer the playful and cheeky member i knew her as.
cancer is scary.
it was a 4th stage diagnosis of lung cancer.
according to PQ, didn't suffer much.
which is good to hear.
its like only a month after the surgery.
didn't complete chemo.
its scary isn't it.
one moment the person you know is gone.
its heart breaking if its someone really close to you.
i wonder what i would do.
i wonder why such things happen.
but its good that it was quite pain-free.
i wouldn't want to suffer in pain before i died.
PQ is strong.
she'll be okay.
we should really treasure the people around us.
we never really know until we lose them.
thats the scary part. it was the same excuse last week.
got something on, cannot make it.
history repeated itself. yet again.
why the hell are you so busy.
you're messing up everyone's time.
our lives don't just revolve around project work with you. Just got note. PQ's mother has passed away.
Though we don't know her mother.
I feel that maybe as team mates, we should go for the wake and give her emotional support.
Should we?
I saw her last week at the hospital.
In fact, I saw her twice this year, and both it was at the hospital.
When i visited great grand mother earlier this year, she was there.
Last week, she was also there.
I guess things took a turn for the worst.
I think maybe we should go as a team tomorrow.
I don't know.
Life is so short.
Its unpredictable.

I hope PQ will be strong.
I'll keep her in my prayers.
Be strong PQ. I know i told myself to be strong. That I can pull through this.
But how come I feel so helpless? Theres so many things to do, and so little time.
I did tell myself I got to get this done by a certain date and time. However, it is all not working out.
I'm really tired.
I just really want to sleep and never wake up.
Sleep all those troubles and worries away.
Sleep and when i wake up, all this will be just a dream,
I know thats not possible.
I just want things to take care of themselves. But nothing is productive is happening.
HELPPPPPPPPPP Today was a horrid day with 5 hours of chemistry. Like 3 hours straight and then 1 hour break, followed by a&p quiz and then another 2 hours of break. The only good thing that happened today? Our group got 11/15 for a&p quiz. The best result ever. Just that we could have gotten 12, if we didn't put bile instead of liver. But it was still a great effort. 2nd highest in class you know! What an achievement. Just 0.5 mark lower than wuwu that group.

Heres to someone who faced some issues yesterday. Hope you're doing fine now. My parents also flare up for no reason affecting the mood of others around. It happens, but as long as you are able to like talk about it, you'll feel much better after that! So yeah. I hope you've cooled down already and i'll get to see you soon!
Things happened today, it really sucked.

I'll be off to do beloved crs discussion cafe and stm. I don't want to bother about the people who don't want to do their parts. I'm going to do it, and hopefully do a good job and earn myself a good grade. I'll be satisfied with myself. I will be strong and disciplined and finish what I set out to do this week. Then I can enjoy cny and study and see my ijclique soon.

Sometimes you just got to take responsibility for your own actions. Everyone has their own things to do. You can't just blame everyone for what has happened to you. You can't say you got so many things to do, that you can't do these projects. Its a really irresponsible thing to say. You may be busy, but think about it. Others are busy too right? But since we have to hand in this project, shouldn't we all just work together and do our parts properly so that we can get this over and done with faster? Then you can go back to do doing your other things? Its all about time management.
Seriously, this is affecting us all as a group. The exams are coming soon, we all wish to have adequate time to revise and do well don't we? So please be cooperative, and get your part done. I don't want to hear anymore of your stupid excuses.Think about others. STM exam changed to 22nd Feb.
I'll be in Batam for camp from 7th-10th March.
Outreach Program Meeting on 11th March.
Pre camp departure briefing at 18th feb.
YOG volunteers briefing on 10th feb

I managed to upload it on fb. Pris, Sze and Marcus have become superstars overnight! on youtube! I'm really really glad we did this! I can sense that great sense of achievement that we all share because of this video. We're so proud of it, that we really want to share this video with everyone! So please make time to watch it okay? :)

I need motivation. I need motivation to continue to spur myself on. I wrote in my planner that I have to complete pbl, crs and stm this week. I hope I do. Because i have goals. I want to finish it by this week. Everyone around is in study mode already. In fact, i feel really slackish because I'm like blogging now? And also, trying to upload my ideas video.

Tried Fb, for an 1hr plus, and it was on its way to uploading, however it just stopped like that. That got me frustrated. So i'm trying something more professional now, and thats YOUTUBE. So i hope it does upload. But its like for 2 hrs plus just to upload it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Chem lesson for 4 hours tomorrow! Gahh! Dad's home. I gotta unpluck the broadband cable and survive on wireless!

As promised, I found the pictures on fb! So here it is. It was the monday blues yesterday. I didn't know which one to choose. The second picture, my hair looks nicer. The first picture, everyone showed their teeth. So uploaded both la! Will try uploading the video again. :):)

Gran has been discharged. i got my laptop back. double happiness. what tops it off? IDEAS WAS AWESOME. I LOVE VeggieMight! We are so awesome for coming up with such a fantastic idea.
I shan't elaorate more. If I can get pictures. I will upload.

Then well, other things happened of course. But we'll get over it. Its a blue blue day.
I INTEND TO FINISH STRESS MANAGEMENT, CRS AND PBL BY THIS WEEK.The exams are coming and I don't want these to kill me as well.